disaster

Absolute fucking disaster. I purged, now I am a complete and total mess.

That was my first proper binge since well before christmas, I am so disappointed.

I cannot believe it came on by just being in the house alone, how weak am I.

I broked my veganism as well which had been going so well all week, just so I could stuff my face withe cereal, which frankly doesnt even taste that nice.

I have now blown my boyfriend off aswell, we had plans, but instead I'm sat here alone purging and now going to do a crazy amount of exercise to burn off the damage.

I feel really shitty, actually I am really shitty, I am a terrible person, I have lied to him for the millionth time and I cannot do it anymore, I cannot do this anymore.

I fucking hate purging, its disgusting, its terrible for your health, and I refuse to ever do it again.

This is an epic fail, it has reminded me how much of a failure I am and at the end of the day what is the result....I am alone....If this continues I will end up alone, there's only so much of my shit that people can take, this must stop now. Sorry, self-pitying rant over.