ABC

I am starting the abc tomorrow, if anyone wants to join me? I will be doing it based on net calories, so if the allowance for the day is 500 and under and I have burnt 200 then I shall up my calories to 700. Only reason I am doing this is I am training for a 10k and I need to make sure I have enough to fuel my runs. Anyway, I have had a horrendous week of binging, and I am truly fed up with myself. I have just over 3 weeks til a 10k run, and I shall embark on the abc until that point. I have never got very far on the abc before,but I am more determined than ever to make it work this time.

127 and the worst day in a long time

End of January, it has not been an awful month, I am back down to pre-Christmas weight, but I am starting to struggle a little bit with eating. On the last day of Jan I binged, it was not even a massive binge, probably just a normal amount of calories, but I had done so well the past few days that I felt like I had to purge. It was the first time I had done it since Nov or early Dec I cant remember, and I feel really let down, and realise why it was that I stopped. Yesterday my throat was in agony, my face was horrendously puffy and I felt ashamed and disgusted with myself, one for losing control and two for giving in and purging.

I am not feeling happy with the way things are going, I know I am losing weight but I just want to be thin again, I know if I keep at it the way it has been going, I will get there, it just won't be instant, and I have to stick with it.

Anyway, just a quick update, I'll post again when I feel less disgusted with myself, and am starting to feel a bit better.