Tough Week

This weeks been really tough...The illness of last week developed in the worst cold I have ever had in my life, unfortunately I have had to work every single day, and could not call in sick....so I haven't been able to rest up as I would have liked....Working 10 hour shifts, standing on my feet all day, means I have been consuming a fair amount of calories...I come home at lunch and when I finish and I am just so hungry.

Haven't done any exercise since Tuesday as I feel like shit.

Intake has been ok: 1300 weds and thurs and 1600 ish today, not bad...though I thought that as I was ill it would kill my appetite and I would not eat much but it seems to have worked the opposite way. Oh well, tomorrow is a new day, and I will hopefully feel better, and start again.

Right now I feel huge...
I have no idea what I weigh...
This terrifies me.

Down days

I've struggled with my intake the last few days, it has not been especially high: between 1100-1400 the last 3 days. I just have not managed to do any exercise at all, so I am feeling kind of sluggish.

I am really not feeling fantastic after being ill, it has taken its toll big time, I just feel completely wiped out at the moment. Hopefully as the week progresses I will be able to get back to doing some light exercise.

Weighed myself this morning, still at 118lbs which is fine because I think my intake has been too high and I have not been burning off as much as I would like.

Some days I don't hate myself every waking second of the day, sometimes I feel actually maybe I don't look so bad at this weight...I've just felt a bit low the last few days...I feel absolutely huge...I just find it hard to do anything or be around people at all when i feel like that...

I think I am going out for a meal with the boyfriend for lunch tomorrow (great! Calories), hopefully I will just eat half of it, and then I won't eat for the rest of the day, I want to keep my intake under 1000.

Fast

24 hour fast is over. Had to be done, I have felt awful the last week, so hopefully I have killed the bug off.

This evenings intake will be pretty low aiming for something around 300 cals. Originally I was not going to eat until tomorrow morning, but I figured 24 hours was enough, plus I am feeling incredibly weak now.

I honestly do not know if I could fast regularly...I've found it alright this past 24 hours, as I have spent most of the time in bed feeling awful. I do not think I could actually go about my normal daily life if I was fasting though.

Hopefully the illness will now be defeated, and I can get back into exercising again, right now I am far too weak to do anything.

I am going to gradually increase my food intake and the types of food I am taking in over the next few days. For today and probably tomorrow I am sticking to BRAT (Bananas, rice, apple, toast) apparently these are good for getting over a tummy bug, and then I will start to increase the variety of food by the weekend. Hopefully will have lost another pound by then.

Hooray for being ill

Went over again! Around 1600 cals. fail. I guess would be around 1400 with the walking I did this morning, which is way too high. Went into work, felt awful and had to leave early, think I have a bug or a virus, anyway I'm fasting tomorrow to try and kill it off as its been lingering since Saturday now. Serves me right for going over my intake, hopefully will lose some weight too.

Struggling

I've felt like I am struggling for the last few days now, weight is down to 8 and a half stone (119 lbs) and I feel like I've kind of settle there and started eating too much again.

Sunday was 900 cals. (fine), yesterday I had to have dinner with the boyfriend so it was around 1300 and today has been a bit of a fail, due to mixed fruit and nut!! Error buying that! Prob around 1600.ish, which is awful, and highest intake since before I started the health kick, really disappointed.

Snow has been awful again today, had to walk home from work which took around 50 mins, at least would have burnt some calories.

Back to hard work again tomorrow I think, I will not settle for 8st7lb. I must be thin.