Fail.

1600 calories for today was fine...2100 is not....epic fail....not even a binge...just randomly picking at stuff, this always happens when I work in the day, when I come home later.

At least it was not anything I would classify as bad food, it was just high calorie food: houmous, almonds, apricots etc....grrrr.

I'm starting over tomorrow, I feel like the cupboards are bare enough for me to be able to succeed (I seem to always find something else!) But not this time, I will not fail.

This last week has really set me back.

I need to be 8st by the 11th February, I am meeting up with uni friends and I do not want them to see me like this.

So, starting now...back to restricting. I hate food. Tomorrow I have to have dinner with the boyfriend which will be around 4-500 cals, so I'm going to try and get under 800. Wish me luck.

Tough Week

This weeks been really tough...The illness of last week developed in the worst cold I have ever had in my life, unfortunately I have had to work every single day, and could not call in sick....so I haven't been able to rest up as I would have liked....Working 10 hour shifts, standing on my feet all day, means I have been consuming a fair amount of calories...I come home at lunch and when I finish and I am just so hungry.

Haven't done any exercise since Tuesday as I feel like shit.

Intake has been ok: 1300 weds and thurs and 1600 ish today, not bad...though I thought that as I was ill it would kill my appetite and I would not eat much but it seems to have worked the opposite way. Oh well, tomorrow is a new day, and I will hopefully feel better, and start again.

Right now I feel huge...
I have no idea what I weigh...
This terrifies me.

Another pound down.

Weighed myself this morning and I was 118 pounds, lost another pound...glad to be back under 8 and a half stone.

I do not think I am going to weigh for the rest of the week though, as I am on my period (2 months in a row, wow!) and I know sometimes this can affect body weight, something to do with water retention, so I will probably wait until it is over to weigh next.

Anyway I am gradually incorporating more foods back into my diet. I had some weetabix, soy milk and strawberries this morning, so I will see how the body reacts to that.

I am pleased with my progress so far, lost 5 pounds in 2 weeks, and hopefully I can keep it up.

Next goal is 116 pounds, which was my maintence weight for probably about a year or so. No matter how hard I tried I could never get under that weight, until I got sick and managed to drop below that finally. Anyway this time around I hope i do not plateau.

I think its important to keep mixing up routine, with different amounts of calories and exercises just to keep the metabolism high.

Oh and thanks for following me, I really enjoy all of your blogs.
Think thin.

Struggling

I've felt like I am struggling for the last few days now, weight is down to 8 and a half stone (119 lbs) and I feel like I've kind of settle there and started eating too much again.

Sunday was 900 cals. (fine), yesterday I had to have dinner with the boyfriend so it was around 1300 and today has been a bit of a fail, due to mixed fruit and nut!! Error buying that! Prob around 1600.ish, which is awful, and highest intake since before I started the health kick, really disappointed.

Snow has been awful again today, had to walk home from work which took around 50 mins, at least would have burnt some calories.

Back to hard work again tomorrow I think, I will not settle for 8st7lb. I must be thin.

One week down...

So it has been a week since I turned Vegan and a week since I cut out bad food (cake, bsicuits, crisps etc) and to be honest it has been a pretty good week, after the hellish weeks of the past few months.

My average calorie intake has been 1000, which is a little high, but for the first week I can deal with that, I'll try and get it down to around 800 this week.

I've done pretty well with my veganism, I had one day when I really struggled and felt exhausted, but I've felt fine mostly, and have stuck to it really well on the whole. I have to go food shopping and stock up on vegan food though. I'm finding it difficult because I live with my mum and dad, and they've always been very accepting of my vegetarianism, but I have yet to tell them about turning vegan, I feel I will get a very negative response.

Ive exercised for at least half an hour every day, mostly wii fit as due to the snow and ice it is to dangerous to walk, let alone run anywhere, so I'm burning off around 100 cals. a day. I would like this to be higher, and once I can commence running again, it will be, although the bad weather apparently is set to last for another 6 weeks! Britain will be at an utter stand still by that point.

I'm attempting to give up weighing myself everyday, and finding it very hard, I really want to step on the scales, but I know it's for the best if I don't...Anyway week 1 down, onto a successful week 2.

Exhausted and hungry

Today has been pretty naff. I had a rubbish sleep, didn't actually go to sleep until long after 2am then woke up several times, at 6ish I could not get back to sleep, so I've just had a major headache and felt really sluggish all day.

The long awaited snow has arrived, so Britain has inevitably ground to a halt. I made the most of it, and made a snowman (I felt like such a kid again, we haven't had snow this deep since I was in primary school) and I hiked up the hill near to where I live, it was a bit treacherous but the views were stunning from the top.

I was trying really hard to make this another day of under 1000 calories, but i've just felt really hungry all day today, no matter what I have eaten or how much water I have drunk, I still feel absolutely starving. Im at around 1200 ish and I have yet to have dinner, so I'm going to make this a maintanence day, hopefully it will kick-start my metabolism, and I will aim to be under 1600 calories which I think I can manage.

I'm a bit disappointed because I've been doing really well, so I feel a bit of a failure today, but i'll just use this as a maintenance day and hopefully feel better tomorrow. As a side note, I haven't eaten anything really bad today just olives, nuts, and houmous have really racked up the calories....annoyed.

Mini-Fail

Yesterday went well, I managed to avoid the cheesecake, and my overall cals. were around 1000 which I was pleased with considering it must have been massively higher than this the previous 2 weeks thanks to Christmas.

Today was going really well I was on 700 cals. for the day, however I had a bit of a mini-crisis when my friend in work, who is a vegan, brought me some vegan cookies and a vegan muffin that his mum had made for me. The gesture was extremely sweet, but sort of ruined my restricting for today as I failed and  ate them all :( I figured this didnt push my calories up to a massive high amount, prob around 1300 I guess, also I've been on my feet constantly moving in work for 8 hours so I figure that must have burnt off a little bit as well. At least the cakes are gone now, and they didn't trigger an all out binge which was good. However, if I was at home at the time, I definitely would have purged, being in work stopped me, which i'm glad about, because i bloody hate purging.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a pretty low cal day and I'm going to try and get some exercise in too, I think its still too icy to start running again, so I think I'll probably spend some time on the wii fit.