Saturday, 13 February 2010

Huge Binge

Absolutely massive binge, been eating all day...probably consumed over 5000 calories...gross. Absolutely gross. Started to purge but stopped myself. I am going to start lent early, i.e tomorrow.

So for Lent, I am giving up:

  • Binging
  • Purging
  • Everything that is not vegan
  • Cereal
  • Bread
  • Any cake or biscuit
  • Crisps
I believe that is it. So there we go...Lent has started now. I gave up bread, cake, biscuits, crisps etc for last lent and managed to go from 8st 4 to 7st 11 so hopefully this will happen again.

Right now, I feel pretty horrible, I feel like the last two weeks have been a total disaster and I have probably put back on most of the weight I have lost. I honestly do not know where my willpower or self control have gone. Disappointing. I am going to work twice as hard from here on out.

I am going to have such a food hangover tomorrow! I deserve it, for being a fat pig.

I entered the sport relief mile earlier, I am doing the 6 miles, which is a 10k, I have never run this far before and never entered a race before, so I will be in pretty hard training to get ready for it, Ran 2 miles today, will do that for the rest of the week, and then step up an extra mile week by week, I have 5 weeks to get in good shape.

Going to start planning out my calories and meals, I refuse to go over the calorie intake.

So this week:

Sunday: (Its valentines, so have to go out for a meal, so will have low intake all day, then have some food later) 1,400
Monday: 900
Tuesday: 1200
Wednesday: 800
Thursday: 1000
Friday: 1200

Plan for tomorrow:
Fresh fruit salad: Apple, Clementine, 1/2 Grapefruit. 130 Cals.
Lunch: 1/2 Bgty Soup. 60 Cals. 2 Rye Crackers 80 cals.
Snack: Carrots and houmous. Cals 130.
Dinner: (going to an indian, so will allow Tarka Daal, Small amount of rice, and some poppadoms) Prob around 1000 ish.

Here we go again.

1 comment:

  1. good luck. &don't beat yourself up too bad when you mess up. just don't give up. you can do it, lovely.