Who am I kidding?

So it's been three days since I decided to leave blogger land, 3 days, 2 of which have contained gross binges including non vegan food, and the other day was just a regular day. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel so lost but I really do feel like I need this blog. I just can't seem to find any normality, it is one extreme or the other. Anyway I am completely fed up and feel huuge, so I am embarking on my first ever water fast tomorrow, first few days will be tough as I have long shifts in work but I am hoping that after that I can just crash at my boyfriends, I am aiming for a 5 day water fast, but we will see how it goes. Tonight will be my last meal for a while, it is going to be a really healthy vegan one and then I shall embark on my fast, if anyone else is already fasting or would like to join me then it would be great to hear from you. I shall update tomorrow with a clear body and mind.