Regression.

Don't know what has happened, first two weeks of Jan were great. Now I have majorly fallen off the wagon, I am so sick of this. Todays disgusting binge:

pear
2 bowls of porridge
3 tbsps peanut butter
2 bowls of cornflakes
7 chocolates
banana and peanut butter soy milk smoothie
falafel and homous salad
more houmous and tofu
about 1/4 jar peanut butter
1 slice of toast with above and jam
2 rice cakes with the above peanut butter
2 more bowls cornflakes
blueberries
4 homemade peanut butter cookies
apple

may have forgotten something else, that is atrocious! All triggered by being alone in the house, why?! This only happens when I am alone in the house and its other peoples food I eat, as I never buy anything unhealthy. I am so sick of this. I am liquid fasting tomorrow and thurs and really kicking up my running from tomorrow.

Scratch that

Not going to be under 126 tomorrow, had a fail of epic proportions today. Even fallen off the vegan wagon for the first time in months, though it has reminded me the reason why I gave up those types of foods, they didn't even taste nice to me today. Anyway calorie count is super high today, not eaten a lot in terms of quantity, just highly calorie dense foods. Back on it tomorrow. I think the not posting until I reach targets was working for me, so I am going to try it again. See you all when I am 122.

And I'm back!

So it did not take too many days of the new year for me to reach my first target and return to all you lovely folks here. This morning weighed at 126 (hooray), lowest I have been since before I went travelling (i.e April last year). New year has started amazingly well, continued being a strict vegan, and for the new year have cut out wheat (not sure for how long, but it is working!) pretty much all junk food (except the odd boiled sweet here and there) and am making sure my calories do not go over 1700 for this month. Today was my metabolism day so I had 1800 all healthy and mostly just grazing little bits throughout the day hopefully rev up the metabolism. This week has been really good:

 Day 1: 1200 cals
2: 1300
3:1600
4: 850
5: 1450
6: 1300

and during that time I have lost somewhere between 5 and 7 pounds (not sure exactly how much due to overeating at xmas!) and am pretty convinced that it is largely down to cutting wheat out of my diet.

I am starting to feel much better in myself and cannot wait to get back down under 9st, hopefully monday :D

How are you guys all doing?